I started drinking in college, and quit a few years ago. I used to think I was quite extroverted – I still think I am, but being dry’s changed my perspective quite a bit.
One of the most common emotions I used to have was regret – after-action shame for dumb behavior. I got pretty good at getting over it probably by forgetting (I’m still pretty good at not remembering it to be honest).
Now when I’m out I’m quite a bit more aware of the things that I could do but won’t because I’d regret it the next day. Maybe it means I’m a bit more pleasant to be around, maybe a bit more boring. I know for sure that I have less patience, I get itchy to move on faster. It’s not really a great habit but it’s better than the alternative.
I miss my shameless self a bit. If there was a way to get that back I’d consider it.
No big thoughts or revelations, just a few words before bed.
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